Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Who I am vs. Who I was

I've been thinking about who I am a lot lately... I was 21 years old when I got married, and in the past 2 years, I've changed a lot. But is that necessarily a bad thing? I shouldn't be expected to stay the same way I was, right? I mean, I'm basically still a child. I'm still learning about life, about myself. I'm sorry that I'm not the same person I was then, but...should I have to apologize for that? What person stays the exact same way their whole life?

I've changed my hair. I've gotten tattoos. I've gotten piercings. My views have changed. My attitude has changed. My taste for music, food, and art has changed. But isn't that what life is about? Experiencing everything in your own unique way?

I don't want to look back on my life and feel held back by the people around me. I don't criticize, analyze, or judge you for your preferences. So why would you do that to me? Why did you expect me to not change? And why are you so disappointed in the person I'm "becoming"? I still treat people with respect. I give everyone the benefit of the doubt. I work hard, love to the extreme, and enjoy the simple things of life. To me, it seems like the major things that you should expect to stay the same, concerning me and my personality, have. How is it my fault that you expected me to keep my long, dark, boring hair the same way?...Or to wear the same drab clothing?...Or to not get interested in body art? Those were your expectations.

I read today on Tumblr that Change is the only constant.

You shouldn't have placed unrealistic expectations on me. I didn't expect you to stay exactly the same, and because I love you, if you chose to change certain things about yourself I would take an interest in them because I knew they interested you...

This is the person that I am becoming. If you don't want to tag along for the ride, then let me know now. I'm not going to give up things that interest me because you don't like them. I've never really been a "rebellious" person, but that seems pretty controlling. And I refuse to be put in a cage for the rest of my life.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

Blondes May Have More Fun...

But Redheads are remembered!

Red Hair

Holy moly, my hair is RED!!!!!!!!!! And I am SO in love with it! <3 I've been changing my hair a lot lately, but I think I've finally settled for a while. I've been trying different reds for almost a year now, but I could never find the right red. ...The perfect red for me. Well, thanks to Sally's being sold out of the dye I originally intended to purchase, I found this:

Ion Color Brilliance Dark Red Blonde 6R

Hands down my favorite red hair dye. Absolutely love the color, even though the in-store swatch had me a little scared.

Red Hair

I also picked up two wefts of human hair extensions and dyed those as well. I opted for gluing them in as opposed to clips because my actual hair is still pretty short, and I was about 90% sure that I wouldn't be able to blend in the clip-ins as well as I would have liked. So..After about 3 hours of dying, and 4 hours of gluing... TA DA!

Red HairRed Hair

‎"Once in his life, every man is entitled to fall madly in love with a gorgeous redhead." -Lucille Ball

Red Hair

Freaking Love.

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